I had a dream last night that I was at the Eiffel Tower, & I was part of this clean-up crew that was going around picking up all the aluminum cans & plastic bottles that were strewn all over the stairs. I think I volunteered to help because I would be able to climb the stairs all the way to the top, which is something I've always wanted to do.
There was some kind of school tour or something that was coming in, & out of nowhere, some of the (college-age) kids would randomly fall through the floor. I got a list of all the kids from the chaperone, & it became my responsibility to find everyone on the list while I made my climb to the top. Along the way, I kept having to help people who had fallen through the floor, and we even fell all the way back to bottom, & I had to start again.
After I'd found/helped everyone from the list, I ran into Greg & stopped for a while. I don't remember what all we talked about, but I remember I really wanted to keep climbing to the top, but he either didn't want me to, or made me feel guilty about wanting that.
I'm not any kind of expert in dream interpretation, but this one seems pretty clear. There's something I want to accomplish - a goal I want to reach for myself. But I keep getting slowed down by helping other people along the way, and feeling like no matter how far I get, I end up having to start all over again and again. And, it seems my subconscious blames Greg for not being able to reach my goal(s), or possibly thinks Greg is in the way.
I'm really not sure what to do with this - I don't think there's anything I can do about it at this point. We're kind of stuck where we are - physically, financially, all of it. I guess I just hope that when all of this Florida business is over, I can find a way to start climbing that Eiffel Tower again, you know?
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